Laser treatment and demoralisation

A strange mixture I know. I had my first physio appointment today. He did this laser treatment thing in my knee to get rid of scar tissue and promote collagen or something. It was really wierd, not painful just wierd. Then he used this thing that felt like it was vibrating really hard but I think it was electical impulses. That was even more weird. The great thing was that he explained everything he was doing and how it helped and what was going on in my knee unlike all other doctors I've seen. So I left feeling happy and encouraged. I then had my piano lesson. I couldn't have played any worse if I tried I swear. You know you get to that stage sometimes when somethings going to badly you just want to stop and run away, or cry? Well that happened in the first thing I played which was only a scale of bloody F major which I should be able to do that with my eyes closed. We then went on to do about 20 scales, all of which got progressively worse as I went on. My teacher didn't say anything afterwards which is even worse than her being pissed off at me. We then did my pieces. My oh my. I really don't know what was wrong with me. I think that was the last straw really for my teacher. She went on about how my exam's only just over a month away and I need to be doing at least an hour and a half of practice a day, preferably three. Dear me. It's weird, piano is the only thing really that I get worked up over. I don't mind failing at everything else (which is just as well really) but I really don't want to fail my piano exam. I can't afford to fail it anyway, its costing me 59 pounds!

Agh what a depressing post. Oh well, I'll be more cheerful tomorrow.