A little thought

Ok so I'm having a little thought, well quite a big thought actually, more like a 'change the whole rest of my life' kinda thought if I'm honest but for the benefit of me not freaking out we'll call it a little thought. Ok so I realised a week ago that I don't actually want to go to Bath to do Music and Psychology. What I really want to do is to go and work somewhere where I could really be useful, like with Tearfund or something. Then I went on in my thinking and realised that theres not much point going out somewhere like that if you have no skillls to offer. So I thought maybe I'll go and train to be a nurse next year instead. Nursing has much more prospects than the randomness of music and psychology. Plus I know that if I can't see a purpose in doing things then I don't do them. I know everyone just thinks I'm lazy when it comes to school work (and that might be part of it) but the reason I did so bad at sixth form is that I just couldn't see a point to most of what I was doing. With something like nursing I can totally see the point in doing it. So anyway, I only decided this last night and unfortunately i think it's too late to do UCAS stuff now. BUT then I thought well maybe I should try to do one of these year long mission things in septmeber. That gives me enough time to raise the money and find out about stuff. My main problem in life is that I don't know what I want. I can't guarantee that in a weeks time I'll think this was a crap idea and want to do something totally different. BUT (again) this does kinda feel really right to me. And I haven't read my bible or anything for longer than I care to admit, but I tried to get back into the habit again last week. And right after I started thinking all this stuff. I would really really apprieciate peoples thoughts and prayers on this. I really do want to do what God wants me to do, I'm just really not sure what that is.